Deserter

As usual, it's been a while. No, I'm not going to explain myself.

My blogging has always been fitful. Little bursts, then long periods of silence. This is partially because I don't have as much time to blog as I might like, but mostly because I find blogging with my name embarrassing. I think I am a relatively well-behaved blogger, so it's not that I say and do horrible things online and don't want people to know it's me. It's more that I feel a certain pressure, as though I have to satisfy the expectations of people who know me as only one thing---a pacifist, or a vegan, or a black metal fan, or a philosopher (hahahahaha), or whatever. I noticed for instance that a lot of readers seemed interested when I was posting about non-violence, but posts on music just met crickets. Maybe my music posts were just crap, I don't know. I simply don't feel like worrying about how people are perceiving me. Yes, this is kind of silly, and it is very much in my head. For the time being, however, it is keeping me from writing when and what I want to write.

So... I have started a new blog, and I am contemplating abandoning this one completely. No, I'm not going to tell where the new blog can be found. (Well, maybe I will, if you email me. Maybe.) It is authored under a pseudonym. If you find it, good for you. If not, sorry. Thanks to those who have supported me.